Day 5 on Roaccutane

ok so I missed the first few days to start here. I was lying in bed last night when I decided to do this progress blog.

I took the 4th tablet last night, I'm only on a small dose to start with - 20mg once a day. After 2 weeks, that goes up to twice a day. I then visit the derm in 2 months for a blood test and follow up.

I'm a little (ok a lot) paranoid about the side effects. I think I can handle the chapped lips, dried eyes are more of an annoying prospect, and dried skin will be unpleasant. I'm already self conscious, the last thing I want is to be MORE self conscious. But I'm trying to focus on the bigger picture.

My fiance thinks it sounds like I'm on some kind of Chemo pill. I agree. It sounds scary.

Oh and did I mentioned I'm a hypochondriac? And I've just stopped taking my anti-anxiety medication?

Nothing happened with the first tablet. At least nothing noticeable. And trust me, I was very focused.

Second night was the same. Third the same.

Last night was the 4th tablet. My skin felt a little tight in the shower, so I've been making sure to moisturise - something I don't usually do often enough. i'm also slathering on the lip balm. My lips are quite dry a lot anyway though, so i'm wondering how much different it will be. i also tend to chew my bottom lip a lot. My eyes feel dry today, but that's kind of normal for me sometimes too, so so far it's hard to tell if the side effects are kicking in or not.

I think the main one I'm worried about is losing my hair. oh and the flare up they tell you to expect at the beginning. And my face being red and peeling. and no waxing. I can just picture me walking down the aisle now, bald spots, dark regrowth, peeling face and huge pimples everywhere, eyebrows growing out of control or over plucked....

But I'm trying to be positive. Fingers crossed being back on the pill combats any flare ups - being that the pill alone clears my skin, hopefully the combination of the 2 will be a super cure.....

So tonight will be tablet no. 5. haven't really expected any side effects so soon, but you never know. I'm still hoping I'm just one of the lucky ones that it doesn't effect too badly.