Medication: the root of all evil - but oh how we love it!

So far I haven't been a particularly good blogger. I decided I was too much of a private person to be publishing my life on the web. However, since then I have had another change of heart (this happens often).

The main reason I have decided to resurrect the blog is that I actually have something I wish to document - my experience on the drug Roaccutane (or Accutane). I've read a few other online diary's of people on the drug which I found to be fairly helpful, so I decided that I'd give it a shot as well. I'd also like the chance to follow my own progress.

I guess the best place to start would be a little background on myself. I was one of the unlucky teenagers who broke out - bad - around the 14 year mark. I also had braces and hadn't discovered the art of highlighted hair yet. So I was the epitome of the awkward teenager. A visit to the dermatologist left me with 2 options, the pill or roaccutane. We were given the roaccutane info pack to take home and read through, at the end of which I decided (well my mum decided) that the side effects were too great, and that we'd try the pill instead. (In hindsight that was a brilliant idea as it also saved me the inevitable and embarassing talk with my parents about birth control in the future). I was also a very disturbed, grunge teenager who idolised Kurt Cobain - so perhaps a drug that had possible links to depression wouldn't of been so good for me anyway.

The pill worked perfectly. My skin cleared up within months and stayed that way the whole time. The problems began again when i accidentally went almost a week without my little miracle tablet. I decided I may as well wait until I got my next 'P' before starting again. However, the month passed, and no signs of the dreaded time of the month rearing its ugly head. So i kept waiting - at which time I noticed my skin breaking out again. Long story short, I ended up going 3 months without the 'P' before I decided to jump back on the pill, as by this time not only my face was covered, but I also developed the lovely 'Bacne' - bumps covering my chest and upper back. Lucky for me this was the middle of winter - and once again it cleared perfectly by summer time.

This accidental experiment did raise some questions though - why was my skin still breaking out off the pill? And why didn't I get my 'P'?

I had a few options. Another thing I probably need to mention is that I was diagnosed with a tumour on my Pituatary Gland about 5 years ago. This messes with my hormones. So I hoped that maybe once that was under control, the acne would also be under control. It also would affect my 'P'.

So I waited until the following winter, before my Endocronologist (hormone specialist) recommended going off the pill again in an effort to figure out where the problem is. Again, long story short, nothing hormonal about it, I'm just one of those unlucky people who have acne.

Which sucks for 2 reason (well it sucks for lots of reasons, but these are the main 2).
1. I'm getting married this year - and obviously don't want bad skin for that.
2. I wanted to sprout some offspring within the next 12 months.

My acne has literally ruined everything. So with my referal in hand, I visited the dermatologist, once again hoping for a miracle solution. There was none to be had. Unfortunately any medication they could put me on that was still safe for falling pregnant, also reacted with the medication I take that controls my tumour. So i had only one option - the dreaded Roaccutane again. 14 years later and the prospect of that drug still scares me. It also meant my baby making plans had to be put back a minimum of 6-9 months. Which, when coupled with the fact my 'P's needed time to regulate themselves, I'm looking at a long stretch of possibly 12 months before I can even consider falling pregnant. Plus the 9 months cooking the child. Equals no babies before I turn 30. Devestated.

But I've put all that behind me, bitten the bullet, and started taking Roaccutane. Basically I decided I wanted to be rid of the acne once and for all, and apparently this is my best and only chance. Fingers crossed all those scary side effects you read about on the net don't pay me a visit....